Shelter

Sometimes I just wanted to tell someone, "I missed you. I missed you so much that it felt like the world continued moving forward without me. It felt like I was stuck somewhere and nobody cared to help me out. I could witness the embers of our love and the shambles of our memories. I missed you so much that my heart yearned in all different languages nobody understood. I tried to write them down, but I was terrified it wouldn't make sense to anyone. But even if you don't understand poetry or literature, I won't mind that. Just understand my feelings. Just understand these three words. They are more burdening than 'I love you.' It made my heart sink every second. I missed you. I missed you so much. This is all. Just listen to my heart. Just listen to these three words."
Love only makes me sad yet my desire to be loved never ends. 

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