Flipping through the pages of my diary

The oak tree has grown taller and healthier. Don't worry, i water your lilies everyday, they are blossoming well! I'm always filled with your thoughts at weird instances of my life. Like while cooking in the morning, while going to work at afternoon and watching your favourite buncakes being sold in street side bakery in the downtown alley and also while tuning the radio at night.  Yesterday, i thought, i saw someone resembling to you and since that moment, i am wondering if you are really nearby, if you are in this city too. I went to the sea shore last night, played with waves, and made a small castle for us. I did all of it while waiting for you there. But before you, the sun came and i woke up! It's another day without you here. All the emails i wrote are still unread. Feels like you really forgot your password.  The sun is shining brightly just like your smile and autumns will be near soon. While roasting sweet potatoes in the backyard on leaves, i'm thinking of y

If i could pour down my heart for the last time for you on these blank sheets, i would paint it all red. Red because my heart was so much in love with you, my love was so much in pain and my pain was so much in anger .  If forgetting you was the first wave to ever hit me, i would never go to the oceans, i would always remember you.  Last ballad of my heart to you, My heart sings, " if it hurts you to remember us for how we ended, think like we never met, if your heart yearns for me and your head doesn't want it to come back to me, sleep, sleep, we'll meet in dreams, if you miss me when i am no longer in this world and it's too late, write it down everything you wished to say to me, i'll come and read through it, if i am no more in this world and you wish to see me, watch the sky all along the seasons, somedays i'll crying through rain wanting to touch you for the last time through the raindrops falling on your face, to somedays i'll be rooting for you with