Flipping through the pages of my diary

I once liked a song I would listen to it on loop I would keep it like a secret A secret only i knew Because i only wanted to know about it I never told anyone or shared it with anyone  It was supposed to be always mine But i don't know how Years passed and i found a new song I started liking it It became my comfort  I thought i would never  forget the song i first liked But not only i forgot it,  i also forgot how it used to make me feel I think it happens quite a many times in life when you stop loving something or the thing you never thought you would forget,  you actually forget about it I Don't know if it's a good thing  to happen or bad But i want you to know  That sometimes things just happen  And there's no reason for it, it just happens And nothing makes sense,  the world switches all its lights off and feels gloomy, But i'm sure you will find your own light house sooner or later amidst all the darkness So, if you loved someone and th...

He asked me, “Why did you call me, tell me?” I called because there was no reason to, i called because the weather was good outside my window, i called  because today i cooked rice stew and i messed up with the recipe, i called because it might rain tonight, i called you because i found a new song, i called because the birds were chirping like any other day, i called because the sun was about to set soon, i called because i had your phone number still on my tips, i called because i bought a new book yesterday, i called because i was reading a poem today,  i called because you didn't call me and i called  you because i missed you while reading that poem. Isnt it so futile, it all goes in vain to wait and look back at someone who is no longer here. Within the reach of my sight, she doesn't stand anymore, she has left, she has left like the morning dew from leaves, like the steam from the teapot, like the last leaf that flew away with the breeze from the tree, like the smell...

You can have the whole world And still yearn for one person You can have all the love to give And still hate someone passionately  You can have a party at this moment  And still feel like you're holding a funeral You can be surrounded by a huge crowd of people  And still miss someone desperately  You can listen to songs you love And still nothing might ever hit the right strings of your heart that once someone's voice did You can have all the happiness in this world And still nothing might take away your sorrows You can hear the deafening music in a ballroom watching everyone dance And still you hear nothing more loudly than your own heart beating  You can have your script all prepared  And still you feel at loss of words when you meet him You can say say say say and keep saying And still feel only misunderstood  You can do do do and do everything for them  And still hear them calling you selfish  You can sob sob sob every tear And still feel...

So if you knew how things would end  Would you still hold onto it for a little longer? So if you knew how it's never forever Would you replace that word with something better? So if you knew i won't be here tomorrow  Would you stay the night together? So if you knew our paths would diverge Would you stand at the cross roads and delay our goodbyes? So if you knew time always runs hurriedly when you are in love Would you stop wearing a watch? So if you knew fate is just a word, not destiny  Would you still believe in us? So if you knew the day we will part ways Would you still find an excuse to meet me again? So if you knew everything we have is for a limited time? Would you set it free when the time will come? So if you knew one day, you will wake up alone? Would you still choose to not be alone today? So if you knew i am not the one ? Would you still say i love you to me? So if you knew it won't workout between us? Would you still work it out for us? So if you knew i had ...

And i always longed for you  but you might never know And I always yearned  for a love like yours  but i am sure you never knew  When i first saw you I knew i wont need you But now you are all i want  Whether as a desire or as a fond Who knew back then You will be all i'll be needing now I know you dont know But sure i love you More than how i'll often say to you Because words are messy somedays But i am sure  My heart knows how Your heart will never know But i secretly always admired you They say, You recognize souls,  souls that connect to yours It's like you'll know Which piece will fit in you And so one day Someone will come  and you'll know They were the missing one And then you'll surprisingly find  Your puzzel is finally done That's how you will know  Probably you have met the one Thats how i met you Thats how i knew you Thats how i know now,                   I am no longer alone ...

"How do you escape?" she asked me. I can't obviously tell her name but she was once my closest friend. Now she is just a passerby. There are actually many ways to escape how you feel, or how the world feels at this moment. Among a hundred ways that i dont know yet, i only have three. The first will always be books, i think i wouldn't have survived till now if i hadn't discovered what poetry could do to my body, my heart and my mind.  Second,  will always be my favorite dramas about life. Recently i have been watching " because this is my first life." I feel like those characters are a part of my family. They consoled me my when days were tough.  Third, will be lying in bed besides my mother just to not feel lonely.  I think there are many little ways to escape this moment but i choose only three because i feel these will be constant and won't leave me. They say to be in this moment but it's not possible even to those who say this because we can...