texts i sent to myself when i was hurting

[16/03, 1:25 am]

Your emotions are pretty amazing, i admire them all, for how deeply you feel.

[17/03, 4:02 pm] 

You will never be too much for someone who really really really wants you. Always remember this. Those who call you too much just wants you to follow their terms and conditions, dont fall for it, they dont love you.

[1/04, 2:25 pm] 

Those who give up on you and the connection never actually loved you. Trust me.

[1/04, 4:27 pm]

The world feels a little lonely when you dont love yourself

[12/04, 11:27 am] 

I am a firm believer of whatever happens happens for the good

[12/04, 3:28 pm] 

You can't lose someone who actually desired you with the same intensity as yours. You only lose when it's one sided affection and desire.

[17/04, 4:39 pm]

We all leave someone to have someone and that someone leaves us for some other someone. It happens, it just happens.

We all have left someone, we all have been left by someone in our lives

[17/04, 4:41 pm] 

My tears have dried up on my cheeks, your name has been wiped off from my eyes.

[17/04, 4:43 pm] 

What you know today, you knew it back then too, your heart was just not convinced.

[17/04, 6:09 pm]

Sometimes you need pain to know it was never love

[18/04, 5:06 pm] 

What hurts hurts

What leaves leaves

Nothing changes

Days pass by

Time keeps moving

And 

Life goes on

And so 

One day you reach a point

When what hurts no longer hurts

When what has left no longer bothers

When you can breathe again

And everything sets you free

[18/04, 5:06 am]

I never knew it's so tough to just be with yourself when someone leaves.

[18/04, 5:06 pm] 

I just want to believe what i lost is not a loss

I keep watching you in my dreams

I tell you how things went wrong between us

And you only say you no longer wants to be with me

[7/02, 5:06 am]

Even our dreams feels like your phone on dnd and i leave the message after the beep

[6/02, 9:00 pm] 

When a door you never thought of closing closes

A door you never thought existed appears 

There's just a gap between these two moments 

If you hold onto yourself for a little while

I am sure you'll make it to the end of the tunnel, you'll see the light again, you'll find many doors for you again.

[18/04, 5:06 pm]

It's takes so long to convince this foolish heart. My mind is smarter

[23/03, 5:06 pm]

 What hurts heals

It's not your first time here

[11/02, 5:14 pm]

If someone didn't understand you, dont break your heart. I often tell this to myself, someday someone will climb all the mountains, cross all the bridges to only come to understand how it feels there in your heart. You didn't over react when you were hurting. Your feelings were valid.

[17/01, 5:14 pm] 

And i think, there's so much stillness and romance in nights when your nervous system is calm, and you are no longer afraid of losing someone. Ashaz thats what i was telling you that evening when we met coincidentally or maybe all planned near that flower shop in the local market near your home. I feel the world is yours, and in this world some people belong to you so no matter where we drift apart, we all going to come back to each other.

[10/02, 6:14 pm] 

Ashaz always told me that little bit of innocence is important to have trust in this world or else we all will only doubt each other's intentions.

[18/01, 7:00 am] 

I think maybe i will never find him, the one meant for me, because maybe there's noone but i am sure that, one day i will find myself above all the lovers i met, loved and broke apart with. That day i would make the greatest and the deepest love ever.

[18/04, 5:16pm]

Even if they gave up on you, on this bond, don't give up on yourself 

[18/04, 5:16pm]

The world keeps going on. And somedays i dont want to work. But i remind myself, i am a part of this world too.